9 days to 30
Was talking with a friend of mine about what we are going to do for my birthday today. Underscored the reality that I am 9 days from 30. Pretty cool I think. I'm taking the age part well. What I'm not taking well is a series of doubts that have been going along with it. Doubts about career, doubts about location, doubts about friends, relationships, etc... What I can't figure out is if they are real doubts I'm generating or if they are pushed on me from outside. I.e., is this because I truly am older, or is it because I am being made to feel older and like I should have more answers?An interesting question though I'm not sure how to approach answering it...
posted by Andy at 9:27 PM
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Must be something about turning 30. I'm about 5 months from 30 and I am beginning to have similar doubts and questions. Sorry I don't have any advice for you but I do understand what you're going through.
It's a matter of both and a bunch of other things all combined into one big thing called life.
You'll have these same kind of doubts on and off for the rest of your life just like you have had them in the past. They just seem to be more prevalent when we hit ages that have been deemed the "You should know this by now age" or "You should have your shit together age". Forget all the outside pressures. You've been here before and you will be here again it never ends. It's just a matter of having what it takes on the inside to sort them all out. Just be true to yourself and not the so called "Outside Pressures"
In response to my anon comment. I guess the whole point I was trying to make was that for me this kind of doubt is new. I haven't had these sort of doubts on and off my whole life, nor do I expect to have them for the rest of my life. While some may take a "this is the way life is" attitude about it, I dispute that and will not accept that. For the moment, that leaves me figuring out my doubts... but hopefully not forever...
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